Wait without thought • 22 May 2011

O dark dark dark. They all go into the dark,


The vacant interstellar spaces, the vacant into the vacant,


The captains, merchant bankers, eminent men of letters…

And cold the sense and lost the motive of action.


And we all go with them, into the silent funeral,


Nobody's funeral, for there is no one to bury.


I said to my soul, be still, and let the dark come upon you


Which shall be the darkness of God. As, in a theatre,


The lights are extinguished, for the scene to be changed


With a hollow rumble of wings,

with a movement of darkness on darkness,


And we know that the hills and the trees, the distant panorama


And the bold imposing facade are all being rolled awayщ۬

Or as, when an underground train, in the tube,

stops too long between stations


And the conversation rises and slowly fades into silence


And you see behind every face the mental emptiness deepen


Leaving only the growing terror of nothing to think about;

Or when, under ether,

the mind is conscious but conscious of nothingщ۬

I said to my soul, be still, and wait without hope


For hope would be hope for the wrong thing;

wait without love,


For love would be love of the wrong thing; there is yet faith


But the faith and the love and the hope are all in the waiting.


Wait without thought, for you are not ready for thought:


So the darkness shall be the light, and the stillness the dancingɉ۬

 

You say I am repeating


Something I have said before. I shall say it again.


Shall I say it again? In order to arrive there,


To arrive where you are, to get from where you are not,
   

You must go by a way wherein there is no ecstasy.


In order to arrive at what you do not know
   

You must go by a way which is the way of ignorance.


In order to possess what you do not possess
   

You must go by the way of dispossession.


In order to arrive at what you are not
   

You must go through the way in which you are not.


And what you do not know is the only thing you know


And what you own is what you do not own


And where you are is where you are not.

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As read after group meditation today, by Shinzen, on a scratchy conference call, to 30 of us all over the world on headsets and mute phone lines. It’s the third section of T.S. Eliot’s second quartet.

 

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