Control, Spokes, Scandalon, Obnoxious, Blog · 26 February 2008
Said to me in a ladies room: "I found your blog and would have never guessed you were such a tweaker! Look at that! You and your random expletives! If you were a man, I'd totally date you. You're a crazy girl."
The other night I re-read something written in my private journal back in December. For those who grok the tweak. Here.
ooO........................................V..........................................Ooo
I wonder if I could pull it off—some sort of practice of writing- from- behind- the- veil.
I say and I say and I say that I’m going to use the owlspace to write less analytically. And then it’s back to conclusions and punchlines and figuring-it-out mind. One trick monkey. Always got to narrow it right down to a sharp little point.
Mmmm. But one-pointedness is for non-thinking. Not for thinking!
My teacher, these past months, he spoke to me in free- association. We’d freewheel for hours and see where it went. It’s perfect for me, the unstructured structure. Conversation is only fun, really, with those open to tangents and awake enough to hold open eight topical lines… and, in the end, speak together their spoked connections. Simultaneous limbs….
Is there a subconscious, unconscious, darkside, whatever? Just look at the modernism of that notion—the old school dualism. Yet… anymore I am sold. Because what else are dreams, and the place lost details go, and the lines of poems or films or scripture that lodge a little while in the mind? Where do superstitions and space aliens live?
With the Jungians I think of a shadow, though not to say it’s all dark as in devious. More like dark as in harder to see.
Freewriting can get you there sometimes. If you don’t get all anal and weird about your process (as science has trained me, so intensely, to be).
Wm Gibson—who writes from his subconscious with some genius—said something about his first chapters, which tend to be opaque and aesthetically not-quite-right. First chapters are a kind of gate he finds himself setting out at the start. The little obstacle helps him find his readers--and encourages people who shouldn't actually be reading to put him back on the shelf.
How obnoxious of him.
Nice!!!!!
Does all of that make sense? I wonder how long I could continue in the back seat without freaking out and taking control back from the Blog. (The scientists would not approve of all this...)
Blog is in control.
Blob is in control.
Glob is in control.
"God" is in control.
As if.
Posted by (0v0)
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As you’ve pointed out to me previously, regardless of what we intend to do, there’s still a lot of truth that seeps through the margins.
The blog IS in control.
You are the blog.
(p.s. what’s a tweaker?)
Posted by: cody · Feb 26, 03:27 PM · #
Glob is my copilot?
I thought ‘tweaker’ was slang for meth users.
Posted by: Carl · Feb 26, 03:35 PM · #
Yes, it refers to meth. I abhor meth. Maybe it’s a not-totally-evil club drug in some subcultures, but it’s ruined too many rural societies the past 20 years. My own included.
Nevertheless (excerpts from Wikipedia): Tweaking is used to describe someone exhibiting symptoms of methamphetamine use, including punding (the repetitive performance of useless tasks), hyperactivity, exaggerated fidgeting, etc.
Guess the punding (a.k.a. ashtanga yoga) is the kicker.
Posted by: (0v0) · Feb 26, 03:42 PM · #
Carl, that’s what I thought, too, which is why I was questioning whether there was a separate LA-specific meaning to the term.
Posted by: cody · Feb 26, 03:43 PM · #
hi (0v0)
sometimes my writing flows more inspiredly, other times more doggedly. sometimes i must be an angel, other times not.
hugs
arturo
Posted by: arturo · Feb 26, 08:51 PM · #
For what it’s worth, I don’t really see your writing as that of a “tweaker” (do you think Irvine Welsh knows about this? Or, although he’s on some other side now, William Burroughs? Perhaps a book is in the works, simply called “Tweaker”? A cut up masterpiece?), and it makes me wonder if my own writing (like my Catherine Breillat entry) is also that of a tweaker. Maybe it’s just super cool to use that word in LA, eh? :)
Posted by: patrick · Feb 27, 06:31 AM · #
Fiddlesticks! One-pointedness can be for thinking, too! Am I horribly reactionary for being suspicious of the idea that free association contains more truth than analytic rigor? Sorry. :)
Posted by: R · Feb 27, 08:51 AM · #
A LA woman was writing a blog. Recently she was caught with two lame (weak; inadequate; unsatisfactory) posts.
A troll (a comment-man) asked the blogger: “Do you have a license to write these posts?”
-Nay, my troll friend, I ain’t got no license (LA accent). These posts here are my pet fish.
-Pet fish?
-Yup. Every night I take these fish down to the lake and let ‘em swim round for a while. Then I whistle and they jump right back into this internet host of mine.
-That’s a bunch of bullshit! Fish can’t do that!
The blogger looked at the troll for a moment and then said, “It’s the truth. I’ll show you. It really works.”
-Okay, I’ve GOT to see this!
The blogger poured the fish into the lake and stood and waited.
After several minutes, the troll turned to her and said, “Well?”
“Well, what?” said the blogger.
-When are you going to call them back?
-Call who back?
-The FISH?
-What fish?
Posted by: Namaste · Feb 27, 01:38 PM · #
Stop now.
Good bye.
Peace out.
Thank you.
Posted by: (0v0) · Feb 27, 04:25 PM · #
I rest my case.
Posted by: R · Feb 27, 08:08 PM · #
You cannot think and have one pointedness. The minute you think you have it, it’s not one pointed anymore….blub blub.
Posted by: Susan · Feb 28, 05:58 PM · #